Come on in, welcome to my heart.... you've been here before aint u? yea u look kinda familiar, I think I once sailed into ur sea by accident..... I took ur hand even though it wasn't mine...Greedy mutha aint i...

By all means, spill out of yourself, no cameras here... want me to replay ur sins? k, maybe later... I got mine, im pouring ur glass as you speak, i mean - as i listen.......

Marlie?? .................................. there we go inhale. fuckyes i like how u do that thang

Make ur mark, forget my path, im following you remember?

This? thats my Pride darlin... nah dont touch, its old... but not by accident that it leads my procession these days.. so ... umm... here's ur glass u like double-double? Addiction is my middle name I MEAN SAMUEL...............................................................................
of course i love you thats why ur sittin here, drink up, swallow fast. Go ahead stare into my eyes, i got my hand against ur hand show me sumfin show me a spade... you hear how the music drowns the echo in ur head?

That... that there is my Lust... the hotel bar of my crouded ways darlin... dont go in there just a bunch of smoke and mirrors y' know??

*hits_cig*............................ I see u found my Anger
Sorry, didnt mean to startle u... Yea it does look kinda like urs don't it? Here stand outside this wall, can you hear me in there? Some nights are better than others, yes... but i guess you already know that.ay dont step inside..... k well there u go...
Watch ur head there's demons above you, they don't welcome rays of hope, ' know? How's that goin down.... c'mon lets get out of here

Fuckyes lets have another, take a seat - now where u going???

Gluttony.................................. thats what that is, you know how i always tell u i chew up what i want in life and spit out the rest darlin.. Yes, im holding ur heart and yes, thats a bit more than one fuckin man can handle at times, let alone swallow whole so..... watch that broken glass inside ur eyes ur seeing things got it??? ok well... maybe I do love it, a little too much..... gimme more

Walk passed that door thats where i keep my jealous ways.. dont ever open it if ur here alone it tends to say a lot about this fucker when my back is turned; Heartfelt Envy, "Self-justification"... yes, did i just tell you that?? dammit shut that fuckin door and here's another glass drink up before ur symphony stops playin... come this way

Lets cut a corner here... u afraid of heights? I gotta a bridge u can cross but.. u gotta jump first darlin... jump for me..... nevermind

Ay u just lost ur fukin clothes was it meant to turn this way or did u just push the red button on ur wall.... fuckit take mine too it is hot in these narrow walls aint it.................................................

ur right its the cocktail.................. yes im here, have another truth for keeps, slip it under yer tongue **fuckyes**

So'umm.... yea thats a scar. yes that is too; well dont stare but yea i guess Sloth has its way of wearing me at all times darlin.... these dog tags do more than just jingle, they contain my un-principled ambitions/ withold my reasons and give way for your freedom, whatever freedom feels like under ur feet baby... and with it the dominating power to be just as reckless with me, ur high, ur hangover, double-cross me.... damn ur purty when ur thinking...

For tonight just ignore this one, my kills are calculated and besides I only wish to bring u peace, lover.... its the beast who took it from you that i wish to kill under my watch. Yea, them.

So ur starting to feel it aintchu? Hurry go hide, I'll find u im sure, i always do.. stepping on my glass, waving passed my moral inventory, making it easy on me to make it easy on u **cut**

Make ur noise have my seat, stay on my eyes and grab that sheet.... take me down -no take me up, then u can drown

Im not a poison, just controlled.... and my substance is everything familiar to ur own.. im just not a graceful creature like u are... in fact, im justa fuckin man, fuckeable but equally as forgiving, my everything... my nothing. So forgive me for not ever admitting I'm in love, but in front of you I have the seven deadly sins that convince my mind that i am not, no no... dont ask my heart it has no place in this bet, for it loses everytime in telling the truth...

*hits_cig*...............como m' duelen que no?

**hits_again**............. how it hurts dont it?

Nah don't turn away, ur wearing ur crown,yea might as well stick around.........................well i dunno, where'd u place ur bet? I'm sure thats where you'll find ur soul; tattered maybe, crying maybe, shattered no, but swallow baby... all in good time each one of us discovers it was stuck in ur throatthe whole fuckin time and fuck if it dont feelgood going down hahaaaa......

making you stir inside an empty glass... yes i said empty... but no less a part of me, a part of you, divided equally amongst our seven deadly sins, retaining my signs, throwing ur clues... leaving marks on my skin...pale tones beneath my blues

so u gettin sleepy and... hopefully u wont remember this trip u took... manage ur way out when u wake up, for now let the truth gravitate.....beneath ur skin, beyond my head... in ur blood...... again feel... feel where..........

feel where I should be dead.


Wild Blood

Hear this wild blood
Boiling beneath the skies of this crazy world
Flowing in rhythm within these veins in a wild hunger
Running mindlessly in search of her wild love............ Reason

See this wild blood
Washing against the current of a distant memory
Bleeding out the names and faces of all others before, all others ahead
Masking this wild heart in search of her wild love......... Perception

Feel this wild blood
Drowning the chambers of my heart, shooting up in all, the lyrics of my life
Taking what isnt mine and leaving the un-wild to go on without me
Making me cry out in search of her wild love............. Failure

Smell this wild blood
Its odorless crave for the judgment call; nothing that i want, yet everything i give, take, leave, Break.... great expectations...
Crazy hopes breathing a life in search of her wild love.......... Hope

Taste this wild blood
The opium of my soul, the poppy field of this broken man
Settling amongst the un-spoken words of ur tongue, in the flavor of the devil's dance
Going down these days in the name of her wild love........... Meaning

Balance this wild blood
In the palms of ur hands, while i go overboard, ur going with me shhh...
Power, apprehension... truth, deduction.. cage this fucker if u dare to try
For in all this blood there's really nothing without her wild love.................... Freedom

Find this wild blood
Somewhere between ur perfect life, and the world i fight for u to keep living perfectly
Revealing itself one letter at a time, hiding its reasons behind yours
Wherever it is, somewhere you'll know... when i catch her wild love......... Home

Syncopation - (s ng k -p sh n) n. 1:.. Accent on an unexpected beat.

... that occurs when a normally weak beat is stressed, kinda like sugar in my blood

.................................... downbeat

Take me blood sugar.... Drop it.... blood sugar
quiet me and spin it the way u got me change the beat, change the course i dare u woman Take me there.... No reason necessary only the will, hold it against me... make it *cut* thats ur signature

You stole my blade, I stood aside and heard your
Blood scream as it died...... a thousand times like me, i see
Round 'n round n' round u go, crash and burn blood sugar its always like new life u see It only reflects what we all fear is all...

can we get an injection over here...................

Cream or sugar, ur masta plan is all the same inside this place u found me
Your gorgeous dolce, soundboard I take ur down beat on the easy, as this fucker listens with your eyes... dynamics, tragedies, theory, serenity..... *the Fine*

Keep it quiet on the Left we rise once again play it; humanity, instincts, warfare
((((rattle the fuckin cage)))) watch this - watch the way she does it, play life softly don't be in a damn hurry to bang ur symbol; QUIETly I SAID.... drown out, blood sugar i'm listening

Broken Glass u lay beneath and glisten above this heavy dry melody, a man with something - expose my counterfeit check my pulse....
Spin me to ur turn, within ur pen im fuckin bleeding over here........... *cutcutcut*

C'mon mizDj mix my dose make ur rise take ur fall above my flames in Monster's Ball im ur devil im ur soldier im ur angel yes ur lover.... pick a sound any sound
Major my undertones.... flatline these edges in ur spotlight,
watch my heart watch my blood its all I have, sugar

fret those strings i got hidden somewhere between *skip*... somewhere between **skip**.... somewhere **skip** .. .. .. .. that my heart beating ?? ??

Rhythm in the shadows, flow in the wild of my blood, sugar... spin it, dice it slander it make me run it keeps this heart strong; playback... my sountrack... hear my nothing, burn it into u deep anyway..cuz it holds everything.........Harmonize....comatize.... my blood sugar.... Serenade your silence and I will orchestrate its uprise no matter the weather inside ur shades of chaos................. Blood sugar

Quick Its Sand

Queen of Hearts.... this gambler got an ace to give to u. C'mon lets go to town... close both ur eyes I got an empire built for you, a place you helped me build on top of the world u see... na wouldn't say it was hard, just enough stairs to keep u busy, enough doors for you to lock on me, and plenty of lost expression to keep ur heart beatin like its time to run...Scattered is no word for the wise, but rather... the self-controlled. Your sand was just too hard to pass thru, u see... so I thought of a place, a place like me.... Your shimmery grains at the edge of my hand, waiting for no more than a surface... absolution with no fuckin care in the world... good god why me.....ya lover i hear you... why NOT me.

Make ANY mention of the lovely cost u require and I announce a thief, a lovely thief i say... For my reckless aces- a plenty, but this draw isn't cheap u see? I got only one Queen of Hearts, my Queen and a three....

Should I have never caught you against my door? Waiting to hear the words,'hey, understand'... you made one drop in this bucket know that shouldering mistakes is more often a self-inflicted habit, triggered to the head.... you filled the hole in my hand, i broke ur fall in a moment, for a moment in sand... Let the sun shine down, let the time unchain... blowin secrets in my mouth, waving smiles in this face... here the emporer has no name... only his addiction, down Farfella's Lane.

Nostalgia in the Strings... I can steal u a song, and I can make u ramble on... But I'd rather build on for u...with the sharp pieces.... of a broken man... feel my beat? its moving in that direction, beneath ur tide, im moving my feet.. moving my feet...not too close - don't get too close, I pray.... walk away from one memory... 'fore u walk this way........ listen to my levy break listen to my words i said... im running im running... Here, have my last breath
Long lived my Cards, my cards of Death

You love the sounds of the night, you break glass from above but hang stars underneath....Yes all in all,I wrote on ur wall and my waters rised for Monster's Ball.... Forgive the simplicity, no Queen of Diamonds would understand, this empire i build you Queen of Hearts.. dealt by one man... and made with ur sand........ **skip**

ONE...... the permanent heart on this scar doesn't require a casual greeting, just know ur love all interrupted is all that makes it bleed out one more time, everytime...this empire of your sand and my water,my blood and ur sugar....how it is that the strings to your pain and the cards of my shame make all dead dreams come alive, I will never know,lover...Or how the shades of your chaos and the soundtrack to my escape force hallways to disappear and burning doors to open here... I will... never know. ... yea plenty of wrong questions i slam down every day... but only one wrong answer makes the grade in this up-side inside-out downazzz kingdom in ur sky. With One Legend. One Line. One Man. One Time.

NATION.... As you know I've gambled all but seven sins away....one life, in my deck of un-principled ambitions I have only my humanity, and your wings in my pocket. Even the shirt on my back belongs to you, my America. But in this place I built for you, you can trace as many hearts on my hand as you want,draw your lines and watch my water from beneath the waves I cause... the sun in ur night all the winter in your fall this soldier knows, he knows when u call.......

UNDER....let me show u to ur silence for a minute.... there's no sweeter place in this empire i hear these days than that of your secret Fault, where i kissed you for the very first time, knowing i couldn't keep u, but i kept u...commanding the undertone of your clarity,stamping the scarlet letter about one man upon the back of your neck...rewinding all that this future, and replaying all that is past. Queen of Hearts here's ur shotgun blast.... now its ur turn to die one more time... for me.

GOD....**hits_cig** .......Heavily weigh on me....here im only the pawn, the Rest... your dimentional cause..... cause for living cause for death but no less short of one last breath. Here's a gambler who's seen the devil,in all places of all faces... relying on me to twist the table yea undo the time...all in name of God u see...in this empire take nothing from the terrors at night, for the devil that gift-wraps ur terror is the same devil that terrorizes me, u see.... just travels a different state of mind is all. Shhhh... we're sinkin.

OVERBOARD....its not in the way i move you, lover. its the way u move when ur in front of me. yeeeaa lets talk about that, have a seat on me.....no keep ur cards where i can see em, remove everything but ur taste... those stilettos, yes...ur real life's just started u see, and this keeper is all sand all water..... lets make some walls come crashing down take my hands off your cold sweat, turn to sugar in ma hands.... who said u couldnt be put back together. I can put anything back together, make whole new tones of ur broken glass...ur sandy beach approached me, your un-civilized Sea.... and one force at a time, i take what's urs tonight...and mark inside you, that which glistens in ur eyes tomorrow.

WITH LIBERTY.....some things are just meant to stay well enough alone.... so why the hell don't I just leave u here all alone.. becausethis empire was meant to be, u see.... its called...'mutual regret...'... yes i paid attention to the small details in this craft i give to u... cuz decision-making is no less a good mind fuck than the effects that can come with em..... so as not to let my water run dry your little sand-empire is ma hand to you with all ma heart rambling somewhere inside...but PROPERTY OF MY DECISION.... my suspicous mind,my breathing soul, all the trap doors u could ask for darlin..... freely from one broken man...

AND JUSTICE.....i've said it before and dammit if my sorry ass don't say it again.... I don't seek forgiveness these days more than I seek redemption.....and rightfully so, sometimes there's just not enough forgivness to strongly argue ur case in life... maybe forgiveness is too much to ask in some rooms of the nation u stand in... u open ur hand as u accept this fucka the way i am, as this is the same composer that accepts u the way u are........ and loves you like the way u love me...The Safe....There is no greater revenge than the justice of revenge. So let me play in the back of ur mind as u take my world and cover it in sepia and call it ur little castle in my water, my Queen of Hearts.... and I will loyally stand outside ur gate, bringin home ur every tomorrow. What's sinkin....

FOR ALL.....Fuck the have-nots by giving it all u do got.... on top of the world u see this empire we built, my everything?? My nothing??? Its all in the way these cards fan across ur canvas... enough space between our worlds and no room to breathe... fuckyes u know what u doin.... hangman in your fingers, devil-dog laying on ur chest, waiting to hear which walls are going to crumble first....see the world from atop, just don't turn this place up-side down, for there's a ring to it all, in one truthseeker's name... somewhere in time... elements of this wild blood in a very quick sand, just not quick enough...

a soldier in flaw I'm defending your minds... opposing offensives with cards of all kinds. underarmed and outnumbered is no reason to flee... likewise I'd stay here with my Queen and a three....

uʍop ǝpısdn ɥɔʇıq sıɥʇ uɹnʇ ʇ,uop zǝs ı ʇıɯɯɐp


Peace, Love, Pianos (written in 2008)

Life can't be all peace, love, pianos.... at times u will have ur peace with ur humble pie, other times you will have a little love corrupted... and of course, pianos play destiny and the keys will miss a beat when you stand up to sing... so, stand up and sing.

Kiss me goodbye just don't let me go. The peace will come when I am gone... Hit my cigarette after we cross that bridge. The smoke rings in front of us will fade even tho the love still lingers... Give some regard to distance when ur eyes can't see a destination. Here, pianos will lead you to a place that only time told.... so stand up and sing.

Offer ur shoulder to all, love freely, for peace comes invited when the door to your heart is open. Love magic only if the magic is free. And destiny will play in the madness of one piano, two piano three piano four... hear me now stand up, sing and cry no more.

As I am somewhere between ur thoughts and nowhere in your sight, keep peace in ur watch, for that peace was my fight. As you walk your walk, love the walk, love in the world what the world won't love back, and play destiny for all with missing keys and as always, watch out for falling pianos... playin destiny.. just playin destiny.... stand up and sing, stand up and sing i say.

Life can't be all peace, love, pianos.....

.................... complete

so gone , so gone u think but i know... i know im not so gone i cant think u in my way sometimes, watch me as i hit this, in ur name, somewhere here.... sadness came....... tell me you, tell me what it is i can do... yea tell me it aint easy, but tell me..... tell me its easier to understand... when nothing else matters theres you the cake, there is you the death and then there is, you, my everything... my nothing....... all kept untelling in a sepia-toned thought, perhaps to stay, perhaps to go up, maybe go down, but never do u leave me to manage the multi-layered chaos of crowded thoughts alone... u are more than a friend, ur my accomplice.... so to the best here i give u me, a secret larger than life, stealth along side your world, but here in front of all, rivers and streams.... here me now im sayin not everything is as it seems *hits_cig* fuck sugary philosophy i say....... a true wise man is more willing to attempt the absurd so that he can acheive the impossible... or at least be able to say he tried

so watch me take this broken heart and ima show u broken man... but hear me bet its beating parts and ur seeing the gambler... yes i said i wanted to be heard, i gotta message tonight, watching the moon watching me,hearing more than i can see... the sun will come... this is the best part of my nights but come the morning i know.... i'll only stand here wishing the sun could deliver more than one message... as my feet will move beyond barriers and run across great divides shooting my will to outlive all and saving my last real breath for the last real fight... in 600 rounds per minute- yes take down this message..... bring u peace, peace into me... and ill bring to u, same fucka u know, somewhere i am, somewhere i'll go.... can't say i regret, nor do i wish against the change of time... just take me for who i am, as u are and as u came... for what i give u is free, free to u, not to me......therefore i say, say again... id rather be there, with my Queen and a Three.

She's defined, yet more than a mystery...

I will never understand a woman. I will never fully comprehend her ways, her logic, everything that motivates her, everything that hurts her, everything that she sees in me........ I've done nothing to try and deceive her eyes. I've made no effort to restore the image of a broken man. I am only me. I am only someone whose heart is never fully broken, but always willing to break it a little more in order to experience the kind of love I can never seem to keep. War means more to the women who try and wear me then the way it means to me.... they are impatient, their hearts tell lies and I can only combat what is in front of my eyes I cannot conquer a disbelieving heart..... I am imperfect, from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. But no doubt the grand desire I am capable of giving a woman, is no more appreciated by her than is all the rest of the ways I've tried to make her see..... the real me.

She gives her all, loving fiercely and giving it all to the one character in her dreams.... she loves me with all she has, with all she is... and puts me on top of a rainbow she calls hers...... for the real me is seen only when I am lived without for so long.......... she lets me move her unselfishly, not minding the mark I leave upon her in front of the world.... She knows what its like to want to love and hate the world and never be ashamed of laughing upon a dream, a broken dream in front of the world, but a dream unbroken to few who dare to dream so fuckin carelessly and beautifully. SHE TALKS LIKE THIS AND COMMANDS MORE THAN MY ATTENTION SHE COMMANDS MY ALL MY LUST AND ALL OF MY LOVE AND ALL MY TEMPER EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN.... my god the way she lusts to love this fucker is more than a turn on its unbearable at times......

She gives her all i said... loves me fiercely.... for who I am, no..... but for who she is..... and to this broken man, there is no other woman like that of a broken woman, broken so finely and so beautifully that every touch she gives is no less than a cut that lasts forever inside places of your heart only few dare to go.... and like a sorceress... she whirlwinds inside my world and blows all the broken pieces about me and scatters it about as her fury against me is felt, is heard by all in her land... she makes no secret of her anger to this fucker who more often doesnt realize he's fucked up until long after she's told me to kiss her ass.....

Tonight she is gone. And like before, she's taken everything back that she'd given to me since the last time we made up. From here, where I stand... in a sandbox of chaos, violence and occassional peace, I can only guess she feels empowered to tell me in so many words, what is yours is mine and what is mine is mine....... For all the way she lusted to love me, she gave me her all, loved me fiercely.... I did my best to return the gesture from as far as I am. Not the first time a woman has given and taken, but its the first time I've ever been affected by those actions from a broken woman.... beautifully broken, finely shattered... in my blood she runs and her neon ways of captivating my hunger for more I finally understand....

She won't ever know what she's done, for I am a man and I have my pride, I will accept her punishment as I have every other time before... Quietly.

but I will never understand a woman......

With Her Hands...

Below heaven and just above Earth, I'm seeing the stars, the stars you painted
With your own hands..... I sit and watch with no light of this moon, but rather, the light of your words, scrolled in your signature... i tell you once again, take me somewhere from this place, this no man's land.... above me, i feel... what you do with your hands.

Below Heaven and just above Earth, there's an echoe whisper, within the walls built around me, built too high for all, but not too high for you. For you know the in's and out's of this empire, you just don't know the way out.... So under this light I close my eyes, and hear what I want, selfish, I know... the things you make me do with your hands....

Tragedies below Heaven, just above Earth, this hand I give to you, my Queen of Hearts.... for my hands are more than what belong in yours, they are the psalm of this unclosed book, about a broken man, a broken heart, fighting inside a broken war, betting against all odds and more....
Take it, show me, those hands you say, above my head these strings you play, the soundtrack to my escape...... Hear me now you are no match here where blood seems to fall where it may, less the chips.... with your hands, rub your eyes and see what i drew on the ground, a full house, a crumbling empire, no.... for the gambler in me does not chance according to weather, i give freely to you, give u me... rather, its the soldier in me whos heart can reach ten degrees, u see... as cold as ice this blood can be, to cope, to leave what's left of me intact, when broken love's all said and done u see... but this u may not wonder, for you hurt the way i hurt, with invisible tears for an unreal pain, without the need to let it show.... Queen of Hearts does your heart know?

This hand I give you, take it, fold it, and play me blind, but we shall make no razordate with our sins... rather, just let me unlace that for you, and to sin, we shall drink up one shot for every time you make me lose my concentration... on this table you will be, in my hands, in front of my eyes, where this place takes no losing hands, only sanctifies em.... tragedies below Heaven, just above Earth...

manage to find me, looking for you, somewhere in between your world and mine, swinging thru ur chaos, raising my blood sugar, breaking all empires in the name of freedom, and rising all choirs, in the name of My Freedom, this broken man, all of a sudden isnt broken standing in your hands.... with those hands, u make me know, that there is indeed a rare beauty to some tragedies below Heaven tonight, just above Earth.